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I'm having a terrible day.

torn..

Somebody that I let go a little while ago wrote me today asking me to talk to her. I wrote her back asking, pretty much, "why even try?" We never talk. We never have time for eachother. We are into completely different things. We are on completely different walks in life. I know we will NEVER be close again, but at the same time, I want to keep people atleast in my life. What if I need a ride or something? haha.. but seriously... I tried to say no, but I wasn't expecting her to come back saying that I'm a huge part in her life and she NEEDS me there. She obviously has been doing just fine the passed couple months... I guess I just don't understand.

Twilight Movie

I think I need to go see Twilight again. I need to make sure that it really did suck as much as I remember it sucking. It seemed like one of those movies like Scary Movie or Date Movie mixed with a poorly thought out independent film. Kirsten Stewert was boring. She seemed out of it the whole entire movie. Her and Robert Pattison did not have good chemistry. You could tell their 'love' was acting. (or lack there of) I'm so disappointed. Which is why I have to go see it again. Maybe I'll like it the second time around.

"I want my wife back"

I DIDN'T GO ANYWHERE. IF YOU THINK YOU'RE EXACTLY HOW YOU WERE BEFORE.. THINK AGAIN. JUST BECAUSE I DECIDED TO HAVE A FRIEND OUTSIDE OF MY HUSBAND AND MY BABY DOESN'T MEAN I WENT ANYWHERE.

I don't think you should have put that on myspace. That's our business.

5 Bite Diet.

I was up this morning around like 8:30 and there was a show on called M&J.. I've never seen it because, I'm usually asleep at that time. Anyways, there was this doctor on there that wrote a book called the 5 Bite Diet. I think it's genius. The hosts did not. Neither did the dietitian. I thought there was going to be a war. They didn't like it because, it's a restrictive diet which can lead to anorexia. You can eat whatever you want though. You skip breakfast, have 5 bites of whatever you want for lunch, and 5 bites of whatever you want for dinner. WHATEVER YOU WANT. I could eat like 5 bites of cake everyday. There were a lot of people on there that lost a lot of weight. They said it's comparable to the diet you're on after gastric by-pass surgery or lap-band. I want lap-band done, but Brandon doesn't want me to. So maybe I could try this first. It's not like it can give me any worse eating issues than I already have.. I need to decide when I'm going to start though. I was thinking on Sunday because, I work Sunday and Monday. It's easier to not stuff my face when I'm at work. Plus, the first 2 days are supposed to be the hardest. It's going to be glorious.

FRENCH FRIES!

Ava was so funny today. She was making herself laugh. It was freaking hilarious. She said she was hungry so I asked what she wanted to eat.. she wanted french fries. We don't have any french fries. So she kept asking for them because, she knew we didn't have them. It got to the point where she couldn't even get the words out of her mouth because, she was laughing so hard. It was absolutely amazing.

Endometriosis

My ultrasound came back with nothing on it. Everything looked healthy. Now I have to go get checked to see if I have endometriosis I guess because, I have a lot of the symptoms of it. I hope they figure it out because, I'm either in pain or I'm dopey.
Yesterday, I woke up crying because, I was in so much pain and I was bleeding an unnatural amount of blood. They got me into the doctor as soon as they could and all they did was give me a shot in the booty for pain. Kristy had to drive down here from Tacoma to drive me and she stayed with me until actually just a little bit ago. I honestly was scared to go to sleep last night because, I thought I was going to die. I'm staying at my mom's tonight since Brandon's not home. I don't want to stay here by myself.