panicky...

I have me surgery tomorrow and even though it's minor, I am freaking out.. I think I'm mostly scared of the anesthesia which is silly, but every time I have to go under, it's freaks me out.. I am convinced that something is going to go wrong and I'll be awake during the procedure or I won't wake back up at all.. It REALLY FREAKS ME OUT. I just need to get this over with. I hope they find what they are looking for though so I can feel better and do all the things I want to do. Like work out, I'm getting freaking fatter. I would also I like to have sex with my husband without regretting it for days afterwards. That's no fun and I think it makes him feel bad which makes me feel bad and it's just stupid. I just need to think about that rather than the anesthesia. Yes. I feel a little better now.